Zack D. Mathuss
211 South Water Street
Steadman & Co
Alone in my room
July 31st (1869)
My Dear Zack
Your good sweet letter I received this evening. I wish your letters
would all be as long, but I am satisfied as it is if it cannot
conveniently be otherwise.
I have been to choir rehearsal this evening so that it is quite late
now. I only commence this letter tonight will finish it tomorrow
sometime. I have had very little sleep nights this week but have taken
more than ten minutes naps in daytime on account of Gracie’s illness.
Tonight as the first night at home since Monday night I feel quite tired
and want a good rest tonight. I don’t know but what I should be jealous
if that Miss Clark stayed in Chicago much longer. I am glad she is going
away. I don’t want any person to get ahead of me in your affections but
then I will not be so selfish. You may go with any young lady you wish.
You have given me the same privilege and I use it so that it is
perfectly square for you to do likewise. I know you love me very much
and I know too that no one without considerable difficulty would occupy
the corner of your heart that I flatter myself. I do. Zack Dear do you
realize how fast time flies. It is now more than three weeks since you
went away from here the last time and three months since you came home.
Zack I believe I could have selected several business in that time.
Perhaps I would be to fast and pay for in the end, but you say business
is to be dropped in our letters hereafter so I will have patience and
keep quiet but do hurry. I want to see you so very much. I expect every
day to hear mothers or Father ask me if you are in business yet, and I
must confess I have answered the questions of much I am run out of
answers – so do help me give them a new one. If I could not set myself
there I would go elsewhere.
Last night before dark I went with Grace E and Will Johnson up to see
the new High School building on this side. Also the new Piano they have
there which is quite pretty.
I will bid you Good night and finish this in the morning. Heaven protect
my boy – a Kiss
Dear I have just returned from church went with George Thummel – he
asked to come in but I politely declined saying “it was not convenient
tonight.” Oh Zack. Man came home on the two o’clock train this morning.
We were quite glad to see him. He has been gone just two months. He
comes home looking about as brown as you did when you first came home.
He enjoyed his trip highly, but thinks land speculation is not what it
is cracked up to be. He says stock business is the most paying.
Tell Mollie I saw Harry Young and his mother Stedman on the street
yesterday and was sorry I had no chance to speak to them. Asa is getting
so very fleshy.
Well Dear I have some jolly news to tell you. On Friday evening this
week I had a letter from a young lawyer in New York City (a
correspondent who very deliberately lays down to me his heart and hand
and fortune for my consideration and acceptance. Now Zack hurry up and
let me see you settled soon – or I might hich to the Lawyer. I will not
frighten you too much as I will say no more. Do not fear that I will
accept him before I hear from you again. I will see if you love me yet
as much as ever. Just think dear a home in New Y- City would be quite a
Write to me very soon Zack. I wish so much you could be here tonight
instead of Chicago. Where every word that passes between us must be in
black and white. I hope to see you soon. Writing does not satisfy me.
Good night again Dear. Pleasant dreams. A big kiss.