HI CD-grouperds!
mark said,
I could really use some help understanding this part too! I actually
have a lot to say about this, however it is a very touchy subject
(intrapersonally with me) and now isn't a particularly ...... it just
occurs to me that it might be opportune nonetheless..and I don't know
how other than it being now a part of you or
your thoughts-being. I used to visualize the angels andenergy
manipulators or something, and how they were helping to place the
thoughts and/or energy from the music and how it would flow. Oh, it
used to be like heaven. I have some beautiful memories of grand
experiences. And it still can and does happen sometimes, but not
much in the past couple of years. Of course, this is live audiences.
Hmmmm. Interesting. I never got past the fear to really perform for any
kind of joy. Started young with my aunt's stupid accordian band in my small
town in Montana. I was on tv when I was 12 playing a Christmas solo. Sigh.
But not loving it, I HAD to to it..... she was my aunt and it was FREE!
Weird reason, huh?
But I never found the real heart of it and I always chickened out as an
older musician whenever the chance came up.I still crave to play for some
reason sometimes but wonder if 50 is maybe too old to start? Funny, huh.
It sounds like it can get pretty intense. I know Thea understands this on
an experiential level and may be able to shed some good light on it.
I would not mind us using this list to talk about feelings about our art
and our self expression if we want and can.
Thank you for opening it up, Mark.
I have to stop to go chop some wood before it gets too dark....but thoughts
of love are with you as you wrangle around with this.
Your friend
Delores